Aku Cinta Kau, Boy <3

♥ Tuesday, August 26, 2008

im just lying to myself -.-

i feel so fucked right now.
so, yeah.
i know i promise myself i wouldnt cry over you, but i broke th promise.
like im betraying myself over and over again -.-
and i got hurt right after i recovered from my old wound,
last-last febuary 14, valentines day, i thought i was hurt than and it couldnt get any worst.
i was wrong again, 26th august 2008 i got hurt even more can.
like my life currently sucks, so leave me a message and i'll get back to you when it gets better. -.-

so i finally regain my hyperness today, after so long.
in th morning i was damn hyper, i dno why.
maybe its cus amelia, clarissa and me okay alr. or i dno.
than i was damn friggin emo after we broke. but i cant blame you, feelilngs fade not your fault right. (im so understanding ! :D) it was kinda mine, i should have been friends with you before making foolish/ idiotic/ stupid not to mention RETARDED decisions. but im glad we're friend again. and if i really, really like you after we know each other as friends than say. but yeah, im still kinda emo.
but like today is also th official day i regain my HYPERNESS, if you know me since around th start of th year you should know im like this crazy siao zhar bo full of hyperness, but after june i dno where all my shitty hyperness go, i just became so emo and i hate it okay. and now im hyper again like im on estacy or something. for those people who know me after i became emo you have known th wrong me. sorry. but im not shy or UNtalkative or paiseh or whatever. cus that was what i have been since june. and i hated it like shit can ?.
- I talk as much as i breathe (:
- im not paiseh, i still remember going to bugis with some guys i COMPLETELy dno with my darlings and running across th fountain with a millionbillionwillion people staring at me, even those boys who were thinking that i was damn brave. Eh it was fun kay ! and than some guai lan people from CHIJ come copy me, and we were all bitching about those girls !
- Im so not shy, thats th exact opposite of me.
- I love to Sccccccreeeeeeaaaammmmm !
- I dance at any time i like.
and if your not happy about what i do i suggest you get a life cus this is mine. :D
I've been told to stop dancing or screaming, i dont like it, and i wont listen so dont bother. (:

nahbehness-
i feel happy/ hyper and sad at th same time.
im only vulgar whe im sad or pissed. cus th truth is i loved him lah !
but yeah on th bright side im FINALLY back. since end of june, people have been asking me whats wrong, why was i so emo. but ohcrapszxzx ! im back baby.
this post is shitty long -.-
and yes i just finish one whole tube of m&&m's and opening th second.
randomness (: muhahahaha.

EDIT

THANKS; my loveszxzxzx !

i wna thankk a special person today.
its monk, despite his damn idioticness he was th one who made me happy ! :D
so i went out to watch kallang roar with him cus i was too damn sad and didnt wna be alone.
hes sick yet he still came. aw.
and he fucking made me laugh till i cired. ahahas ! :D
kallang roar is th stupidest show ever ! but it was damn funny lah.
and he kept on saying that th uncle is going to die after he eat th kueh la phis -.-
andand we were laughing at this super mohk guy -.- and i was like super ~~mohk~~ monk!
roflmao. That guy was like a fat chicken with th tinniest legs ever, still th best player ! and he did his gay walk ! lol ! and than monk walked me home, but he didnt wna take th long route which we didnt have to walk, instead he made me walk, cus his 'lim behh' go hom will scold him, sick, never go schl, still can go out. alamak ! nice person manszxzx ! :D
ohoh and i kept throwing pop corn at him ! :D
when we left th theatre he could open his own popcorn shop lah !
but he threw back at me lah, but not so much. thanthan we too lazy throw away he just flinged th popcorn box ( still with some popcorn left in it) onto th front seat infront and than we laugh untill my stomache pain lah. thnks monk ! you made me happy. :D
oh and victoria too fr cheering me up but than i made her angry buy playing th darkness and not listening to her mufiyan script.
oh andand too clayton for making me laugh due to his pervness and vulgarness, and telling me ites not worth ' such a bastard fuck fuck fuck shit bastard' LOL ! thanks lah ! th thanks i owe you is uncountable ! :D

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